I hate this!

I hate seeing my self gaining weight again, after losing 11 kilos am now gaining 5 kilos in just 3 months. I told my self I must take an appetite suppressants to stop it. I must go back to strict diet and how I wish I can survive without eating rice. Its very hard to start once again but am praying I have the courage to do it once again religiously. I must do it positively for my own good.